everything reversing

Yesterday he was sweet with me..almost like if nothing ever happened.. Makes me confused..makes me live him more, makes me forget 10 days of darkness with one night of attention and love...makes me forget the screams, the mistreatment..them from day to night, everything goes back to the same,,, the monster come back and he screams... And i am confused...i don't know what to do... What does he want from me? Help me God